Thought of the Day: Baik.

Didatangkan Tuhan ke dalam hidup ini seseorang yang mengajar tentang baik. Secara luaran atau dengan pandangan mata kasar manusia yang terbatas ini, dia menjadi kegilaan ramai dia dikagumi ramai dia terlihat sangat baik. Kalam Tuhan terpaut di dada, bijak berkata kata, apa yang kurang? Pada mata manusia terlihat dia sempurna, tetapi sesaat kita lupa, dia juga manusia biasa yang tak lari daripada kekurangan kelemahan dan juga dosa. Menjadi satu buah fikiran untuk dijadikan sebagai refleksi diri. Bila disingkap semula diri ini, betapa Tuhan menjaga dan menutup setiap aib yang ada. Betapa Dia, Sang Pencipta, menjaga aib hamba-Nya ini sehingga ada manusia mengidolakan, mengagumi, bahkan mengatakan baik pada diri yang hina ini. Most of the time, we put too high expectation on someone yang kita gelar sebagai manusia biasa. Sehingga tertutup mata hati dan terlupa seketika yang dia seorang insan biasa, bukan nabi yang maksum. Hidup di dunia ini penuh dengan peluang yang diberi Tuhan hingga apabila tiba pengakhiran hidup kita nanti yang menentukan nasib kita kelak. Dia bukan maksum. Aku kamu dan kita semua, tidak maksum. Jangan pernah lupa, tinggi menggunung harapan yang kita letakkan kepada seseorang mahupun sesuatu yang tidak kekal abadi, pasti akan membuatkan kita luka dengan luka yang teramat dalam dan sukar diubati. Demi Tuhan, ia sungguh menyakitkan. Harapan hanya tinggal harapan. Terkubur sepi bersama tangisan sendu. Jangan berpaut kepada selain Dia. Letakkan harapan menggunung kepada yang mencipta diri. Stop being inferior, don't be superior. Kita semua sama, hamba. Bukan bermakna membenarkan kita untuk merendahkan manusia lain. Tidak sama sekali. Apa sahaja yang kita perbuat, jangan lampau batas. Mengagumi tidak sampai memuja, membenci tidak sampai mengeji. Lakukannya dengan berpada pada dan seadanya. Kekalkan zuhud dalam diri. Pandanglah setiap manusia dengan pandangan hikmah dan sangka baik. Mengagumi dan menbencilah kerana Allah. Semoga dia redha akan setiap perbuatan kita semua.

Wallahu a'lam. 니사

Song of the Day: Khai Bahar - Luluh.

Source: Lirik Lagu Dewi

Sudah puas aku menangis lagi
Kau hadirkan mendung awan yang kelam
Namunku kan tetap bisa bertahan

Secebis kasih yang telah kau beri
Kan kusimpan dalam memori indah
Tapi semuanya telah berakhir

Aku tersungkur menunduk meraung
Dan tiada siapa bisa merasakan
Oh sakitnya hati ini

Jika kau tak mampu memberiku senyum
Usah kau hadirkan dengan kedukaan
Oh biarlah hidupku dengan caraku

Secebis kasih yang telah kau beri
Kan ku simpan dalam memori indah
Tapi semuanya telah berakhir

Aku tersungkur menunduk meraung
Dan tiada siapa bisa merasakan
Oh sakitnya hati ini

Jika kau tak mampu memberiku senyum
Usah kau hadirkan dengan kedukaan
Oh biarlah hidupku dengan caraku

Sedia menghadapi yang akan tiba
Takkan berundur walau seketika
Aku terus berjalan mencari sinar baru
 

Thought of the Day: Stray Cats.

Yesterday I walked from the animal house through Murni Cafe and there was a cat looking so thin walked towards me. Suddenly the issue mentioned in MPDM's group popped out into my conscience. People are so angry because the cats keep peeing and pooping everywhere because obviously, it stinks. I did not doubt that. Plus, some of the cats did their business on the shoes. Seeing the cat, I just kind of reflect, 'what if we are in their place?'. Walking around like crazy searching for food, but nobody is care. Nobody gives a damn that we are starving to death. They angry because there are people giving the cats food and causing them to urinate and defecate in the dorm. Well, if we look at the bigger picture, Malaysia has not yet established any authorised body that managing the stray cats, like Singapore or Japan. So, basically, if you go anywhere in Malaysia, especially a standard restaurant by the roadside, there will be absolutely cats everywhere. D.E.F.I.N.I.T.E.L.Y. Except if some of us living in a very high standard life, then, that is another story with having trouble to adapt with the cats everywhere, etc. We throw foods if we cannot afford to finish it. It is so wasted if just throw it. Then, what is wrong with giving the food to the cats that needed it more than us? Give to them nicely and at the proper place, then the cats will not jump and dig into the dust bin and drop it. We already knew about those cats, so why not keeping the expensive shoes or each time we left the room for a long time, put the shoes or the selipar on the rack? We have learned from our first experience or maybe others, and we should take the precautions. If we keep complaining, then what are they supposed to do? Terminate all the cats? It may be one of the best ways, terminate them in a humane way. However, there will be some cost required. I am absolutely not in the place to judge other people. All of these are to reflect me. I just cannot stop thinking if we are in their place. Not eating and being so skinny. Not eating for a few hours is already like hell. Then, how about them? Giving them food is one form of sadaqa. It is a reason for the increase in provision and it is a door from the doors of sustenance. As a Muslim, we know the advantages and benefits beyond that.

Wallahu a'lam. 니사

Song of the Day: Kim Bo Kyung - Don't Think You're Alone (혼자라고 생각말기).

Source: Time To Lyrics

지치지 않기 포기하지 않기
어떤 힘든 일에도 늘 이기기
너무 힘들 땐 너무 지칠 땐
내가 너의 뒤에서 나의 등을 내줄게
언제라도 너의 짐을내려 놓아도 된다고

혼자라고 생각말기힘들다고 울지 말기
너와 나 우리는 알잖아
니가 나의 등에 기대세상에서 버틴다면
넌 내게 멋진 꿈을 준거야

성급하게는 생각하지 말기
정말 잠이 올 때면그 자리에 기대어
너무 지친 니 몸을잠시라도 쉬게 해줘

혼자라고 생각말기힘들다고 울지 말기
너와 나 우리는 알잖아
햇살이 참 좋은 날에그런 날에 하루라도
또 다른 우리가 되어볼까

오늘과 다른 내일을 기대하며
멈춰 설 수는 없어

혼자라고 생각말기힘들 때도 울지 말기
너와 나 우리는 알잖아
니가 나의 등에 기대세상에서 버틴다면
넌 나의 지지않는 꿈을 준거야

우리라는건 니가 힘이 들 때에
같이 아파하는 것

Don’t get tired, don’t give up
No matter what hardships you have, always overcome
When it’s too hard, when it’s too tiring
I will lend you my back from behind
You can set down your burdens at anytime

Don’t think that you’re alone, don’t cry saying that it’s hard
You and I, we know
Lean against my back and if you endure through this world
You will have given me a great dream

Don’t rush and think ahead
When you’re sleepy, lean against the wall
Give your exhausted body a momentary time of rest

Don’t think that you’re alone, don’t cry saying that it’s hard
You and I, we know
On a very sunny day, for just one day
Let’s be someone else

Let’s hope for a different tomorrow
We can’t stop

Don’t think that you’re alone, don’t cry saying that it’s hard
You and I, we know
Lean against my back and if you endure through this world
You will have given me a great dream

When it comes to us, when you’re struggling
It’s hurting together

Series of the Day: Thirteen Reasons Why.

Tape 2, Side B: Tyler Down.

Tape 4, Side A: Zach Dempsey.

Tape 4, Side B: Ryan Shaver.

FAVOURITE:

Thirteen Reasons Why Soundtrack

Thought of the Day: My Heart.

11:06AM, Wednesday, 24052017.

I always hurt with them. Either way, I'll be lonely either I'm with them or I'm alone. Hari tu kata buka puasa seorang, tak ada teman. Habis aku siapa? Tahu-tahu keluar nama dia dalam list orang orang yang balik malam ini. It felt like my mind went somewhere else, for that short moment. I'm lost, I'm speechless.

It's okay, Nisa. It's your choice to walkaway. To satisfy them. So that, they will not feel as if I'm being bias or taking advantage of them. Therefore, the decision has been made for me to walkaway from them. I'm cold. I miss my old self. Maybe because I stay here too long. Almost reaching 4 years of my life here. I always wonder why is it always me whose at fault and to be blame? Why?

How is that? Puas tak sekarang? Kalian tuduh diri ini dengan pelbagai tuduhan. Menuding jari padaku. What am I supposed to do, so that you will not felt as if diri ini mempergunakan kalian? Diri ini datang dan pergi sesuka hati, yeah, it is absolutely my fault. Which beyond that, nobody knows. Deep inside...

Demi Allah, aku tak mampu lagi sudah nak berhadapan dengan kalian. I may act as normal. But I cannot go any further than that. FYI, I'm a type of person whose easily attached. That is it, that is my fault. For being me. That's me. And you will hit me damn hard if you ask me to not being myself. I'll be damn hurt. And one of you just did that. And I think I can see myself how cold have I been since then.

I cannot ever talk by looking them in the eyes. Bukan dendam. But, that's what happens. Kecewa, cuma itu yang mampu aku katakan. Insha Allah, tiada sedikit dendam pun dalam hati. Malah diri ini berusaha untuk mendoakan yang terbaik buat kalian semua. Everyday, I try to forgive and forget everything, and I pray for others to forgive me too.

It's just that a crumpled paper will never be the same paper as the paper newly released from the factory. Thank you. I accept my qada and qadar. Everything happens for a reason. There will be a big hikmah later behind all of this. I learnt a lot. Thank you so much. I'm sorry, I love you.

Wallahu a'lam. 니사

Thought of the Day: Passion.

Suddenly at this particular moment, I want to do a little bit of throwback about my passion. It's like a video tape playing inside my head. Going all the way back to those moments of me being so passionate. So, I decided to write something about it. Tell some uninteresting story about myself. Haha.

CAMERA

I used to love camera, very much. Imagining myself holding a DSLR, being a photographer. I'm neither an art person, nor a creative thinker. But, that's what I've been dreaming of not too long ago. I will took pictures at every inch of evey corner. I have also once wished that I have the Samsung Galaxy Camera that can be connected to a wifi for an instant share online, and it is white in color. And I don't remember exactly the flow of the timeline, but my parents bought a camera once, for me. And I still have it now. It's SONY. The features, include ability to go underwater. But now, it can't because the cover of the battery charging port was gone, which may allows the water to get inside the camera causing malfunction. I rarely use it now. You know why. Eventhough it produces a much better quality of picture. If I'm not mistaken, I remember I once won in a photography contest during my high school. It was my stepping stone back then, for me to pursue my passion. But, it got lost somewhere in the universe.

GUITAR

I saw a guitar at my grandma's house. I used to stay with my grandma for maybe a year or two. Sometimes I secretly took it out, just to get the feeling of touching it and listening to the sounds it could produce. Eventhough it sounds terrible because I never met a guitar before and I didn't know how to make it sounds better. The guitar belongs to my aunt. Not too long after my secret meet and greet with the guitar, my aunt decided to gave me the guitar. And fast forward, one of the strings was broken due to my own fault when I'm trying to manually tune the guitar. So, I bought a string at a mart to replace it and ended up not knowing how to. The guitar is still there, at home, I think. I couldn't remember when was the last time I touched it, or even saw it. I've been thinking some methods on how to fix it, but it just not happening. I've been preparing myself watching some online lessons and tutorial for beginner. It just went straight to the drain. But, I want to fix it one day because my aunt gave it to me, so I should take care of it and fix it.

PIANO

Recently, I've been searching on YouTube about how to choose a good piano as beginner. And I'm stuck with Yamaha P45. I love it. It's magnificent. Back then during my high school years, I've learnt how to play a song from a friend. I couldn't remember what song, but the singer is Judika. It's an Indonesian song. I've been so eager to grab and play a piano. Generally, I always wanted to play musical instrument, at least one instrument is more than enough, and is not like I want to become an expert or a professional. I have a very high passion on this. Although, I'm hoping it to be true, but sometimes my brain tricked me that it's all not worth it, which most of the time I do agree with it.

Well, I wish I could do all of that now. Working hard to make the dreams come true. But, maybe not in this world, maybe in another world, at least. Everyone has their own dreams and passion which we always wanted to achieve and be good at it. We are being created by God with purpose. Live your life to the fullest for the better life hereafter. Don't destroy it, don't ruin it. And everything happens for a reason. HIKMAH. There will always be a hikmah behind all things that happen in our life. Have faith and always believe. :)

Wallahu a'lam. 니사

Thought of the Day: Ujian.

12:18AM, Friday, 20012016.

Pegang erat-erat hadis ini, insha Allah, kita boleh jadikan sebagai motivasi tatkala diuji. Sama ada ujian kesusahan mahupun kesenangan, kerana sesungguhnya segala apa yang ada di dunia ini adalah ujian.

الدنيا سجن المؤمن، وجنة الكافر

Maksudnya:

"Dunia adalah penjara bagi orang mukmin, dan syurga bagi orang kafir."
(Hadis Riwayat Muslim)

Wallahu a'lam.

Dan juga surat cinta daripada Tuhan yang menciptakan kita semua, boleh dijadikan sumber kekuatan utama tatkala kita lemah ditimpa ujian bertalu-talu.

Firman Allah: (Al-Baqarah: 286)

لَا يُكَلِّفُ ٱللَّهُ نَفْسًا إِلَّا وُسْعَهَا ۚ لَهَا مَا كَسَبَتْ وَعَلَيْهَا مَا ٱكْتَسَبَتْ ۗ رَبَّنَا لَا تُؤَاخِذْنَآ إِن نَّسِينَآ أَوْ أَخْطَأْنَا ۚ رَبَّنَا وَلَا تَحْمِلْ عَلَيْنَآ إِصْرًا كَمَا حَمَلْتَهُۥ عَلَى ٱلَّذِينَ مِن قَبْلِنَا ۚ رَبَّنَا وَلَا تُحَمِّلْنَا مَا لَا طَاقَةَ لَنَا بِهِۦ ۖ وَٱعْفُ عَنَّا وَٱغْفِرْ لَنَا وَٱرْحَمْنَآ ۚ أَنتَ مَوْلَىٰنَا فَٱنصُرْنَا عَلَى ٱلْقَوْمِ ٱلْكَٰفِرِينَ

Maksudnya:

Allah tidak memberati seseorang melainkan apa yang terdaya olehnya. Ia mendapat pahala kebaikan yang diusahakannya, dan ia juga menanggung dosa kejahatan yang diusahakannya. (Mereka berdoa dengan berkata): "Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau mengirakan kami salah jika kami lupa atau kami tersalah. Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami bebanan yang berat sebagaimana yang telah Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada kami. Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang kami tidak terdaya memikulnya. Dan maafkanlah kesalahan kami, serta ampunkanlah dosa kami, dan berilah rahmat kepada kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami; oleh itu, tolonglah kami untuk mencapai kemenangan terhadap kaum-kaum yang kafir."

Semoga ini menjadi kekuatan untuk kita teruskan sisa baki hidup kita di atas muka bumi ini. Apa yang penting adalah niat, Hadis Pertama dalam Hadis 40 Imam Nawawi. Betulkan (tajdid) niat kita dalam melaksanakan urusan-urusan duniawi mahupun ukhrawi. Adakah untuk dipandang, dipuji, disanjung oleh manusia? Atau kita ikhlas semata-mata untuk medapatkan kasih sayang dan rahmat Allah? Setiap perkara yang kita lakukan disertakan niat kerana Allah (lillahita'ala), insha Allah, Dia hitung sebagai ibadah. Semoga kita jadikannya sebagai modal untuk kita terus mengumpul pahala dan masuk ke syurga Allah, dengan redha dan rahmat kasih sayang daripada Dia.

Wallahu a'lam. 니사